fundraising

Yesterday the girls and I set out with post cards and letters to work on some fund raising to help the girls get home. We went into 4 stores and were met with "no's" and annoyance. I came back to the car and cried. I then sat there and prayed and asked God for guidance and wisdom and to hold my heart for me.

I had placed a notice on craigslist and got a very hateful email about how if I cannot afford to adopt, then I shouldn't and that they believed it was a scam. It really hurt.

If you do not know me, there is nothing in the world I hate more than needing something from someone and then asking. I don't know if it is my pride or my fierce independence or my feeling not worthy of what they have to offer. I do know that the girls are worthy and God is and He has called us to this. I am sure that God is trying to teach me dependence on Him. After that, instead of going to every store I could find. I let God lead me.

I talked with the manager of Mardels (who was actually surprisingly curt with me. Not at all what I expected) and after we receive a letter from LifeSong for Orphans proving they are a non-profit, we may be able to set up a booth with them. Lloyd talked with his manager and Sam's and we might be able to go there as well. I am excited about it, but at the same time nervous about how I will be able to ask passers by for donations and how I will handle the "no's". I am hoping to get some help. (Brandon, our 15 yr old, is great at asking for money lol.)

What I need is someone to come on board and help me know how to do this. I have never been good at raising money. I am willing to work, I will work hard. I just seem to not be good at it.

God has provided everything we have needed so far, I know he will provide all. I just need to learn to accept it.

You have not, because ye ask not......... Teach me oh Lord, how to ask!